It's just not enough,
When we're so much more than friends.
We're much too young to throw away our cares.

I've always loved you, Hermione. I'm not sure when I realized it, but I know the feeling. I haven't felt much of it through my life, but I know that you're the one. I know that you've been patient with me, even when I'm a pain in the arse. I love that quality about you.

I'm terrified. I'm terrified of what you would say if I told you. I couldn't stand to be rejected by one of my closest friends. I couldn't stand to see the hurt in your eyes when you know my secret. I know I can't hold it to myself forever. But I also know that I have to bide my time.

I've been with Cho Chang for about a month now. I've been holding her like a shield. She can guard my secret from you. You always look so disapproving when I'm with her. Cho doesn't like that very much. It makes her uncomfortable. But it makes me a little happy to think that you would care enough about my well being.

You've always cared for me, come to think of it. I just wished that I could give something back to you, offer what you deserve. You deserve so much more than I can put forward. I hate that feeling of inadequacy. I hate that I'm not enough. I wish I were.

You've always been so beautiful. Sure, your hair can be a mess sometimes and you can be obnoxiously loud, but I love that about you. You don't give a flying damn about what anyone else says. You have the courage to say what you think and feel and express it in an animated form. You're always glowing when you talk.

I know that I've been ignoring you like the plague. But I've learned something. Absence really makes the heart grow fonder. I thought that I could forget you. But it's not that simple. I could never forget you. And Merlin knows I've tried ruthlessly. I never thought I'd fall in love with anyone. But once I saw you, I was taken.

I wish that I didn't feel this way about you, but I can't help it.

I know you don't care, but I love you Hermione Elizabeth Granger.